Tag: Personal

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Give as good as you get

And the week started like one long Monday… but an amazing one at that… It was pitch week for something, closure week for something else and a shoot for a third all rolled into one! But it’s when the pedal is to the metal that character truly shines out. Help and support came from some and others succumbed to their true colours which wasn’t … Read More Give as good as you get

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Love is patient, Love is kind….(or messy and impatient and loud!)

And it’s my favouritest(yes, it could be a word), mushiest day of the year and I love it! I woke up delighted as I do every Valentines day and was showered with puppy kisses and orchids (my favourites) and the day started out just right! But over the years, I have realised that love is not just about puppy kisses and orchids- much as … Read More Love is patient, Love is kind….(or messy and impatient and loud!)

The ‘Perfect’ storm

This weekend I had a realisation– more often than not , while we’re so busy trying to be perfect and appear flawless…we sometimes put on the same front for ourselves. Appearing ‘perfect’ for someone else is fine, but conning yourself into believing that all is well, is delusional, silly and can be downright harmful. In my life, I’ve always tried to appear the trooper, … Read More The ‘Perfect’ storm

I’m weird!

I’m a little weird and I know that most of you who know me will think that this is a glaring understatement. But I think , in the most part, so are each of you! This week was a mixture of emotions. With the looming doctor visit today, the week had a sense of foreboding and horror. The start of the week though seemed … Read More I’m weird!

Why does it Hurt so bad?

So I’ve realised it takes a village to build you up and make you feel confident but it’s often just the one person that can bring that confidence crashing down! And that’s just sad… What the tens, hundreds or millions say about you can be shattered by one thoughtless comment or one mean remark. It’s like that little devil inside of us barely needs … Read More Why does it Hurt so bad?

#FakeNews

‘You look so beautiful.’ ‘ I am soooooo busy. ‘ ‘My marriage is perfect.’ ‘Of course I eat… yes… real food silly!’ ‘ The holiday was amazing!’ ‘My kids are awesome!’ – every lie we ever tell each other now becomes firmly stuck in the forever world of the internet. With filters and instagrammable hashtags it’s like we’re all living the perfect life…except we’re … Read More #FakeNews

With unimaginable pain …

And as the steroids ended and my body struggled to fix itself I understood what pain and starting over truly felt like. Steroids made me relearn how easy it is to take our body for granted. The simplest thing like taking a straight step became a chore and my body hurt in places I didn’t know could hurt at all. But with that came … Read More With unimaginable pain …

Fear, MRIs and 5 ams

The stress of or the fear of something often is far larger than the actual task itself. This was at its clearest this week. With the planning of a surprise party, the visit to a new doctor, yet another (though each one is as stressful as the next) MRI and the travel and return travel on 5 am flights made for a memorable week. … Read More Fear, MRIs and 5 ams

My Harshest Self

And with Multiple sclerosis , the mood swings for me are a bit intense. It doesn’t help that I’m a Gemini- Taurus cusp or that I have a steroid producing brain tumour or that I’m plain nuts… but I do seem to have really low lows. The plus is that I am logical enough to know it’s temporary and fixable. The minus is more … Read More My Harshest Self

Birthday stresses (and no it’s not about just getting old!)

So the birthday rolled around and this one was unlike any other! I’m the quintessential Gemini about birthdays even though I’m a Taurus-Gemini cusp! I plan for the next birthday the evening of the previous one- so I’m that kinda psycho birthday maniac, But this birthday I was a bit more introspective and stressed out- had this year counted for anything? Had anything changed … Read More Birthday stresses (and no it’s not about just getting old!)

The Dirtiest 3 LETTER word!

A common ailment most people are suffering can be put into just 3 little letters… E-G-O! We’ve all heard “Jaante nahi ki hum Kaun hai?” (Do you not know who I am?) but nowadays it’s not just about stupid and cheesy lines , it’s about shouting louder, valuing your opinion above all else and not listening to anyone’s voice but you’re own, it’s about … Read More The Dirtiest 3 LETTER word!

…to all who have lost someone

What if I were forgotten , as if I were never there? What if you couldn’t see me anymore , what if you didn’t care? When my life is over , would you know my name? Would I be remembered, would sunsets feel the same ? What if I were forgotten , as if I were never there? Isn’t life so transient- a breeze just … Read More …to all who have lost someone