And she just died. I read a post yesterday where a girl I knew posted on Instagram that she was on her deathbed and a few hours later she was dead. I had not met her for a few years but I had been aware of the work she was doing and she was doing well. She seemed happy and with so much to … Read More She died.
#RIP #GoneTooSoon #Heartbroken All useless tributes that mean literally nothing once someone has passed. It’s not like he/ she can read the ‘love’, ‘the tributes’, or feel ‘the sadness.’ It makes us feel better, like we’ve done something – but in truth it means absolutely nothing! Yet another life was taken this week- I say taken, because a person was so depressed he quite … Read More Hypocrisy and Death!
And with the tensions of the week building, the Multiple sclerosis enjoyed its play ground of havoc! I had dizzy spells, pain everywhere and the added stress kept pushing me in to a deeper, deeper spiral of pain! And suddenly I just stopped. I asked for a moment for my self and Aditya said he’d take over gladly and helped me delegate some of … Read More Pain spirals and magic
And in a blink of an eye we end January…and before we know it the year will be gone too. And so suddenly I realised I was exhausted! I mean mid-year madness , post monsoon and pre vacation exhausted. That’s when I realised that there was no point.
This year had so much…taught me so much, challenged me so incredibly and blessed me so wonderfully. I started the year saying to myself that I would be more social and more social I became… I found new friends, stayed up later, laughed longer and harder and was more happily exhausted than ever before! To the old friends I love you… to my new … Read More 2019
And as the smog of December settled, instead of the happy winter chill it seemed like all it brought were coughs and colds and the delightful seasonal depression.
So I was on anti-depressants… I did not know that, till I completely understood the medicines prescribed. Apparently anti-depressants are great for progressive multiple sclerosis…and minimising the attacks. Of course the minute I understood the drugs I was taking I stopped them immediately. Even though this may help MS; I was really worried about addiction and side effects. Sure enough, withdrawal was awful. Bad … Read More Getting off the meds
And in keeping with the theme of the year Diwali had me with the flu! The Diwali party I went to had me in tears when a guest innocently asked me about my health. I blamed it on over tiredness and far too much medication with almost no food but it spoke to me of a deeper worry. This year my health got me … Read More Burn the Old
The Doc’s appointment was not the easy, breezy, smooth sailing Friday evening I expected… Instead I was given a scary fact check and reminded that despite the fact that I take my illness (Multiple sclerosis) rather lightly, it is a serious illness and I will need to start taking more care of me. And so I did, what else, but go out on Friday … Read More #BadDay
Those who know me know I believe strongly in numerology… numbers- the ones I like and especially the ones I don’t like help me make choices between access cards to offices, square footage of my office and even hotel room numbers. But in life, even if all the numbers align; sometimes you have great luck and some times not so great. As a number … Read More This too shall pass…
And so keeping in tune with the year the back collapsed on me… with a slip disc I hobbled around albeit sideways while my puppy tried his best not to trip me up on stairs (unsuccessfully) and my husband worked on being the ‘perfect stick’ for me to lean on (equally unsuccessfully). And though I was told I should rest I hobbled thru my … Read More Slip Disc Musings
I have always been rather self destructive. My parents remember this well, when I got myself in trouble when they were in the midst of shouting at my sister for something she had done and I would suddenly point out something I had done which was worse. But cute as that seemed as I grew older, I got even more destructive. The critical little … Read More Kill Cruella!